Oh Shit.

I am still fucking alive.

I haven't written in a while. I want to say it has been because I've been busy but I'd be lying. I've been all over the place these few weeks. I've gotten some inspiration from a few close friends. Everyone has these plans and I just pray to God that everyone of them get to the place that they are dying to get to.


I've been through so much. Sometimes, I think I forget that. I'm such a hard worker. I don't get nearly as much credit as I should get. I've worked so hard to get where I am at today even though I am not completely where I want to be, I can not forget the progress I have made. However, sometimes I really wish that I had a better support system. I never have anyone there rooting for me. Many times I have to be my own cheerleader. I won't give up. I didn't give up.

This summer I'm going to live my own life, I get so sick of being associated with a person. I'm my own person. My own interest. My own style. I'm ready to go off and do my own thing. New friends. New life. I can't say that I am sad to be leaving to this place... More realized. More relaxed. More hopeful. I will not fall down this same downward spiral anymore.


I am such a vague person. I just never feel the need to go into details.
Anyways, finals are underway. I'm putting myself to the test.
I'll keep you updated.

-Alicia

Progress.

So, eh. I haven't been here in a while. It's been a long week but I've gotten eveything I needed to accomplished and more. School is kicking my ass. I always stress over my grades. Even when I'm doing well. Right now, I'm in a position to get a 3.o or higher. But the idea that I will fail keeps playing in the back of my head. I work hard. I actually get good results. But what happens when you start to slack and lose focus of the goal? The results are devastating.

I guess I don't have much to say.
I just really need hope, guidance and determination for these last few weeks of school.
So close...yet so far.
I have a goal and I plan on accomplishing it.

-Alicia.
XOXO

It started in Ethics.

So my weekend was pretty damn interesting, I guess. On my standards, it was pretty interesting. I ended up spending too much money but you know what I'm so proud of myself. I've been managing my money very well. But anyways this weekend we went to Morgantown, West Virginia. To be honest the town isn't nearly as bad as you would think. I actually found the town to be very nice. I could possibly see myself living there. And to mention their McDonald's had the best sweet tea I have ever had in my life. We went to a gay club down there and it was...let's just interesting. There was a drag queen there and she had to be the most disturbing looking drag queen I hav eever seen in my life. LOL. I promise, you would have agreed.

Anyways, the club wasn't really my scene but eh, I was kind of mad because my boyfriend was being a douche bag. Don't you just hate when they say they are going to call back and don't. And then you text them and they don't get back to you until like hours later. I was peeved but I tried to make the best of the situation. My fave part of the club was getting to spend time with my friend who honestly, I miss so much. I never say that. I never miss people. I miss him. He is a really good friend and I always have fun hanging out with him. Just a little disappointing that I don't get to see him or hang out with him as much as I would like and we go to the same damn school! But you cherish those moments you do get to spend together.

So, it's Monday. School wasn't in my plans today which is why I only went to half my classes. I slept. It was good. I happened to get up and went to my last class and I'm thankful because we saw a documentary that really caught my eye. It was a movie about the terror, living standards and problems that are plaguing countries like Bangladesh, Peru, South Africa and Haiti. It kept my interest the whole time. It's very sad to see people forced to live this way. I just want to go to these places and just give them food, decorate their homes, take them for a drive or just give them a hug. I know what it's like to live in poverty and trust me, it's no laughing matter. Unlike these families, my family had the opportunity to get out of poverty. When you are in poverty, just the smallest gestures give you a glimpse of hope. When you are in poverty and lose hope...it's over. I really hope one day that I can make a difference. Not change the world. But just make someone's life better. Or even better two or three or maybe even four lives better. I don't mean sponsoring some child in India or donating clothes to the Goodwill. I mean getting out there experiencing, changing and thriving with the less fortunate. Gain knowledge and share it with the world. Maybe I'll go to Peru and teach them how to read. Or provide homes for the homeless. Only time will tell what impact I will have on someone else's life...

Also.
My heart goes out to any and everyone effected by Columbine. Let's celebrate the lives lost.
I can't believe it's been 10 years...

It's incidents like this that makes my life revolve around justice/humanity/human rights.

So, what is this?

So, I am no good at keeping blogs but eh, let's try this again. I feel that my grammar, spelling and structure is too good for blogs. Like, seriously.

So, life has been hectic but surprisigly good lately. I've finally decided that political science will be my major. For good. I'm sticking to it, even if sometimes it's tough. I really want to go tograd school for Public Policy. Making a difference is kind of the whole point of this. How can I make a difference if I don't have the knowledge and background? I finally got a B on a political science exam. I usually get C's. Not because I don't know the material but because it's just SO much information. I was so happy. I have a Comparative Politics exam on Monday. I'm going to really study hard because the exams in that class are RIDICULOUS. Filling in blanks. WHAT HAPPENED TO MULTIPLE CHOICES? lol. a thing of the past.

So, I finally have a boyfriend. This is so new to me. I've never seriously dated anyone. Usually because boys are stupid and just because I have a deep fear of committing to anything or anyone. For once, I'll give it a try. Let's see where this goes... At first I was a little afraid... But now, I'm a little more confident in my decision. He is such a fucking weirdo. My parents are going to be like "I'm not surprised you ended up with someone like him." LOL. Not sure if that is a good or bad thing. But oh well. He makes me happy. I can't wait until this semester is over so I can go home and spend too much time with him. I really hope this doesn't end like those two week relationships that I HATE. but eh, right now things are good.

Before, I did this blog, I read a old blog that I had posted, I had to delete it ASAP. I can't believe I was so foolish back then. I would NEVER do that again because I would never want anyone to do that to me. I really hope God forgives me for doing or just for EVEN thinking about doing something that silly.

We are suppose to go to a gay club tonight. Drag Queen Night. This shall be very interesting. lol. Gay guys dressed up as women, can life get ANY better? lmao. I really don't think so.

So now, I'm off to make my Obama colleague or should I say my Michelle colleague. That woman's style is for the WIN!